I am a mess. In the past, I have experienced “good days” for weeks at a time. Lately, I’m lucky if the cycle is every other day. I’m not inferring that the “bad days” are bad, it’s just as if my “git up and go” got up and went. Lethargic explains it probably best.
In my defense, I’m certain age has something to do with it, but not all. I have lots of things going on. I’ve just recently reached the stage where my Spinal Cord Stimulator (SCS) installation has settled down to a manageable level. Dialysis is always a 20-pound gorilla sitting on my shoulders. Something I haven’t blogged about is even a heavier weight: skin cancer has taken over my head, breaking out all over the place with scabs and now bleeding wounds that my wife has to bandage every night to keep blood off our sheets, etc. This state is partially my fault, as I postponed continued surgery while having the SCS installed. Then there’s the heart. Upon leaving my last cardiologist appointment, I was admonished “to not do anything stupid,” meaning really, really pace myself. As a rather active dude my entire life, this is just about untennable, but it is now wearing on me.
I assume one way or another, this will pass, for the better or worse. In the meantime, we’re enjoying 80+ degree weather here in North Texas. And even with its bumps, life is good!
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